Thursday, July 07, 2005
project is killing everybody..
i guess..
hmmm...
sort of pissed of.
not about darling..
maybe due to all those projects...
wanted to really spend alot of time with dar and you know like how we spend our holidays together...
nobody disturbing...
only da both of us...
escaping into our own fantasy...
creating our own dreams in the air..
i miss the holidays...
argh..
i want the holidays...
back.
tired.
i'm just putting on a tough front...
a tough front to fight all projects..
projects....
i guess it's like if i were to give up halfway...
mum's going to scold me...
but i dun think so la..
silly of me to do that.
wahaha...
just resist..
STUDY lor...
was checking the dictionary for the word "Friends"
Friends are classifed into a lot of categories..
i miss qiying...
i miss wen...
i miss serene...
i miss my old gang of friends where there is freedom of speech...
nobody stops us from speaking anything..
nobody will be eyeing at us with that fucked up attitude...
nobody will be around scolding us... or backstabbing us..
cuz we HATE backstabbers..
there are COWARDS...
ha...
sounds like Stand up, Speak Up.
hmmm...
well, life is just like this..
you cannot have a perfect circle..
often the circle will have some air coming in and out..
thus that air is the problems that we faced...
the only way to patch the holes are just to keep smiling...
putting on a mask...
everybody wears a mask..
come on..
everybody does..
well... all right..
today i was booked by the warden...
together with dar...
you noe..
based on my character..
based on my attitude..
i dunch care...
i got used to all these since secondary schoool...
was sent to principal's office for some gal that BACKSTABBED ME...
making my own decisions for the school...
my CCA teacher got me into DEEP SHIT...
sent me to principal office...
it's an idiot story la...
my CCA teacher believed my partner in the same CCA...
cuz i send my team for National Competition...
but i told that partner of mine to tell the teacher in charge..
she didnt
betrayed me
turned the tables around..
my principal...
vice principal...
scolded me..
the whole school noes about it.
made me a laughing stock..
lucky i got serene and gang..
stood up for me..
went to the gal and told her off..
i was like...
in this world...
you see..
everybody is fighting for everything...
fighting for fame...
fighting for glory..
fighting for status..
that gal wasn't happy ever since she joined my CCA..
cuz i was the president at that time...
she couldn't work with me..
bitched about me.
used to that.
just plain jealousy..
why she cannot promote and i could..
all those stuffs..
i have a CCA teacher that doesn't work at all..
dumps everything to me.
leaving the whole GOING TO CRUMBLE CCA to me..
to handle..
argh!!!
irresponsible..
so i learnt to be responsible from that moment..
i learnt not to look down on all those students that they think have attitude..
not to let any teachers look down on students that have been to girls home before, students that have a lot of attitude problems..
i stood up for all my sisters that i have in Sec. school..
cuz i felt they are humans too..
most normal technical students are in my CCa...
they are rebellious, attitude, hack care, not studious type at all..
teachers may look down on them..
but i dun..
was rather funny la...
how i can become president when i mingle with all these gangs of people?
huh?
reason: when you become part of them, you understand their behaviour and why they are like that...
its true.
its really true...
my mum was at first worried..
cuz whom i mingled with all eventually one by one went to girls home...
for gang fightings, everything..
but when they are out..
they changed.
the home changed them.
that was good.
i was happy for them.
still in contact..
still their attitude self.
but they are really united..
they stand up together and at least know the real meaning of real friendship..
never had they backstabbed one another or humiliated one another..
though poor in status but rich in moral.
talking about this cuz i was reminscing how my secondary school teacher treated me?
or in fact my CCA teacher only..
the other staff knows me well enough...
cuz of Janice..
Janice is one ever gal that i will ever remember...
my mum's colleagues were asking my mummy..
how come your daughter mingles with them when she is a teacher's daughter?
wahahah...
is there a law saying that a teacher's daughter must be quiet, introvert, dress smartly, cannot have friends that are like those...
STEREOTYPING...
goodness!!!!!!!!
i want to faint....
but seriously, after meeting dar...
i think tamed down quite alot..
maybe?
though still loud in school...
very loud in fact..
but previously was worst...
beizhen would know why i was louder last time..
hahahahahahahah...
my CCA mould me that!
it's a CCA that i cannot even believe why i joined...
hahaha...
all right, even of bullshitting....
i want to sleep...
good nite...
dar is asleep already...
*lovehimloveme*
weareone ♥
12:18 AM
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